incognito

today has got to have been one of the most emotionally stressful days ive had in a very long time. with trying to manage the stress of midterms, work, and my social life, im finding it hard to keep myself happy along with everyone else at the house. everyday, i basically have class from 8-11:50 am then work from 12:00-5:00 pm. so when i get home, i pretty much just come home exhausted. i eat, shower, attempt to study, and then sleep. pretty much it. ive been so on the egde lately from lack of sleep from studying, and getting my period never helps. on top of that, ive made life a little harder for myself by getting completely wasted the past two weekends on being wasted and having to recover from nasty hangovers..ugh its shitty because i never used to get them and now i do! 

anyways, the story im trying to tell is that me and my roomie got into a big fight this morning because we’ve been avoiding talking to each other about the problems we are having at home. in the end, i ended up crying for twenty minutes ON CAMPUS after running into her and not being able to hold it in. i cant say whether was completely embarrassing or not, but i am so certain that at least 100 people saw me and her stupidly crying our eyes out, apologizing and hugging each other. yep. pretty sure it looked like someone died or something,. oh and this happened maybe half an hour before my political science exam. kind of shitty because i dont think i did well just because my mind was so distracted from having to go through that. id just like to say that its good to just communicate with people who are close to you in your life before situations like this one happens. on the other hand, im glad that i got the chance to just cry my fucking eyes out. cried so much that i made her cry too. it was awful but rewarding because now we are good again. 

im glad that today was sad because now im happy again:) now im working on trying to prioritize my weekend. more tests to come next week and the one after. although, i could really go for a vacation from hilo for a bit. thinking that maybe me and the roomies should take a mini road trip to hapuna on sunday. that sounds nice. as for now, gonna study for my plant pathology exam. what a friday it has been. 

says the world:)

it has occured to me that both of my ex bfs are both currently in sf spending their time with their new gfs. and here i am by myself. but thats alright. i think i really need to be alone after all. dont need anything extra to worry about. but hey look what ive done guys? everyone is happy. the world is turning. its all my doing. magic. bittersweet magic. 

this past week or two, ive gotten feeling this vague presence that you were watching me and i have no idea why really. just all of a sudden got that familiar chemical feeling out of nowhere. its that weird telepathic connection between us. it still exists for some reason. yehh, its been slowly dying down over the course of this past year or so, but for some weird reason i can still connect to the signal. still feel like i can tap into and experience your emotional shifts. something is up. whats on your mind? whats truly on your mind? worried about you. hope everything is okay, jord.

theoncomingsagan:

a haiku about going to school tomorrow: 

no no no no no

no no no no no no no

no no no no no

prettyglossythings:

We’re shopping when you get here. Just to let you know, I gotta breate new life into my clothing again =P so yeah, prepare to keep some money ready. Or just to give me a lot of feedback when I try shit on. <3

OH MY GOD YESSSSS i need a new warbode pronto. yes save the shopping crave until i come!